My Vault, My Other

Brewing for a real long time this one…

‘You don’t miss, what you don’t have,’ they said,

Then why is your absence such a prominent presence?

And why does this heart ache for you so?

You may have been a brother, a sister even so,

A sibling for life is what I really desire,

It would have been such bliss now when I ponder,

Whoever you were, I wish you were here…

We would have shared volumes of episodes together,

Those are just locked up in my Vault now.

A hand to show me the right course,

A gesture that would make life a morsel easier,

A keen ear for my deepest emotions

And a shoulder when It would flood my heart.

Would have you to look up to when all went down,

But these too are just wishes in that Vault of Oblivion now…

You and I would have set the world in awe,

Would have never needed anyone else to be,

Now I’m scurrying alone with my lost self,

And have bruised every corner of it myself.

Have been wandering with my heart up front,

And handing it off to every stranger, in the hope for shelter.

All I got was betrayal and treachery,

I would’ve saved myself off all this misery,

If only you had been here with me…

You may feel that I’m blaming you for this dejection,

It is not that I haven’t tried otherwise,

It is that I have failed once too many.

And when I find not a name else,

My heart wants you to cover all the smother.

So I come back to you, my Nameless Other,

Trying my little best to air my despair.

And now that I think of it,

You and my Vault are but one and the same!

For what you should have been, you could not,

And what I want of you, you are not.

The least I could do to save you from Oblivion

Is to incarnate you as my blissful brother.

So let’s make peace with what little we have now,

And live happily, forever and ever…

  

P.S.: Understand the sarcasm towards the end.